I have been writing journal since 1995. It’s my 19th year. This is my second 10 year diary, 9th year. One page is divided into 10 rows. I can read and remember what happened last year, two years ago, even 9 years ago. Sometimes I read the rows above and sometimes not.
I only write 3~4 lines every day. Last night I found I haven’t written for 2 weeks. My brain was filled with Ikeana workshop, what, when, where to buy flowers and vases, how I can provide the participants with most interesting and beautiful experience!
I realized even the workshop successfully finished, I didn’t write. I couldn’t spend even a few minutes for myself. Reflecting a day and thinking of what made me happy, what I could do well, sometimes what made me upset or mad( but once I start remembering things negative it’s hard to change mood so I have learned to write anything good. )
I need to talk to my mind or to God before I go to bed . A kind of night cap. Maintenance myself. I need to care my mind as my face and body. Hot tea is also make me feel calm, thought green tea has more caffeine.
I did and still some times have nights I cannot sleep with regret, anger, and worries….. it’s hard. I start counting sheep. That makes me awake…. But that’s Okay because one year after , two years after I cannot not remember. =) ha ha ha. It’s nice to keep diary.